Well Well, Graduation is just around the corner and I am quite stressed about everythign in my life at this time! We are practically a month behind our yearbook deadline as it is just Gillian and I working our asses off on a grad commity of 5, well except the help of a very good friend of ours who graduated last year and was the TRUE editor of the yearbook, Krys I love ya! Today I was pretty much to busy with yearbook to go to class, thats sad! I went for my lisences last week and the vehicle I took failed so I couldn't even take the fucking thing! Piss me off my life would be so much easier if I could legally drive!
What else I started to like this really awesome guy who is sooo cute and was noticing me also and now I may as well be invisible, oh how I love that! I've just reached a point where I hate this place because of most of the peple in it!!!! It's so fake here and I end up being fake so that I don't have to deal with them on any level which also makes me so very sick!! Whatever soon I will be graduated and out of here and I will find a great guy who wont break my heart! Assholes thats what Plaster Rock is filled with assholes!!!
Well Christmas was very different this year as it was my last here a kid at my parents house, now I have to be grown up and simply a vistor in my parents house for the holidays! It doesnt feel like it should be like that, I'm not ready to be an "adult" and all it entails, I'm still a kid! I got lots of gifts to move out with for xmas and a 5-disk changers CD player, its really nice I love it I got a Reba CD to play in it too! :)
I hate being back to school because I never feel stressed, well rarely feel stress unless I'm at school doing everything that I have to do here!! I have no time to do anything, I work and go to school and of corse do yearbook. There's a hockey game tomorrow that I have to work at. Have to be there for 7, and work on yrbook til 6:30 I also have to find time for supper in between there. I always work, senior year is flying by and I for some reason today feel like I'm missing it all go right passed me!
I have so much english shit for Mrs DeWitt too which means I really have to put effort into it and I have no clue when I'll find the time to dso so. I also have to back for tomorrow and theres so much I have to do that I have most of it on a list and the rest over time I forget no matter how hard I try no to forget, maybe thats my problem I'm trying to hard and stressin' to much?
Sheena's 3 week stay is coming to an end as she leaves Sunday morning and I have no idea when I'LL SEE HER! meh, I always get stressed when I'm around her now :S and she gets mad over me for some reason it wasnt the stay at home I was expecting, I was sure it would be better I really did, but life changes and that is what has happened I guess, oh well don't get me wrong, were still friends it just felt very different....weird different, she's in thius great place and I'm here which I dont mind so much all the time but I feel inferior to her now I guess, which makes me feel guilty because I have such a limited amount of time with her anyway and I'll miss her when she leaves, anyway, I bitch about not having enough time for everythign and I waste a half an hour her babbling for very few ppl who will read this most of which already know all this shit anyway. and way g2g now, dont know when I'll be back. Lots of Love
~*Ashley Dawn*~
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